The Weather Cooling and so am I...

This time of year really effects me. This is the time of year I like to curl up with some coffee and enjoy a good book. I am also reminded of how much I miss my tan, and the feeling of the summer sun on my skin. I am truly a summer child. Texas summers are hotter than most people can handle but I have been here most of my life. I have to admit though they get to much for even me.
I do not handle cold well.

Even though I am young I suffer from stiff joints and find it hard to move in the colder weather. Often I am even in pain. So cold weather is not my friend. We have never been all that close.The benefit of hot summers in Texas is mild winters.I have only seen real snow maybe three times in my life and once was on a family trip to Oregon.

This year as the weather starts to cool and remind me that there really is a fall here in the metroplex I am reminded of other things as well. I am reminded that although I love being single it is nice to know you will have someone in your bed to keep you warm on cold nights. Someone to hold cuddled on the couch watching B-rated horror flicks when the snow is falling outside. I am finding myself missing the comfort that having someone brings.

I am luck enough at least to get to sleep next to my lover and hold him, but there is something lacking there. I guess the only thing missing is knowing he is not mine. In the same breathe though I am not his either. I enjoy our time together and always look forward to the next. Since we do not belong to each other though, I am lacking that comfort of knowing I do not have to be alone.

I am not saying I want to change things in my life. I do not need a man to find comfort. It is nice to have someone to drink coffee with when it is cold outside though...